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Gidget
Quit Date: March 14, 2008
Posts: 693 Location: New Haven, CT
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Posted: March 14, 2009 8:13 PM Post subject: 1 Year |
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Today was a celebration of my choice to live. As much as I celebrated my choice, I was haunted by the vision of my Dad in Hospice only 2 months ago suffering with brain cancer and begging to go out to smoke every couple of hours in below 0 weather. He would forget he smoked as soon as he came in. It was heartbreaking.
I resented that nicotine could continue to have such a grip on my dad. I hated that it would take almost an hour to get his skinny, frail, unresponsive body dressed and bundled for the sub zero weather only to wheel him back in to sit in front of the fireplace to heat up a little bit. I hated that it took every bit of energy and brain power he had left for him to think about smoking. This was not the beautiful, wonderful man that was always so full of life. My dad's addiction to nicotine killed him.
He is certainly now in a better place with no pain, no treatments and no medicine, but I am heartbroken. He was an amazing man with an awful addiction. He was so very proud of me that I was able to overcome and that I have continued to choose to live. I know he is celebrating with me today.
gidget _________________
My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny.
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kevin Site Admin
Quit Date: -
Posts: 9538 Location: cincinnati, oh
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Posted: March 14, 2009 8:17 PM Post subject: |
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i'm sorry to hear about your dad's passing, gidget, but you're right: he's better off now, and he had the chance to tell you how proud he was of you before he left. that's something you can cherish forever.
happy anniversary! _________________
keep choosing life!
kevin
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Mary Dude
Quit Date: June 15, 2004
Posts: 4803 Location: Pittsburgh, PA
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Posted: March 14, 2009 10:48 PM Post subject: |
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Happy ANNIVERSARY Gidget!!!
Hold on to the good memories...and stay free!!! My condolences to you and your family. _________________
Mary D.
Smoke-free one day at a time!
Worry doesn't help tomorrow's troubles, but it does ruin today's happiness! |
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pinkpearl
Quit Date: June 30, 2007
Posts: 1667 Location: Illinois
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Posted: March 15, 2009 6:59 PM Post subject: |
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I missed your anniversary as I didnt get on here yesterday at all!!
Happy anniversary gidget!!
hugs go out to you... _________________
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essie662
Quit Date: April 14, 2004
Posts: 3388 Location: MI
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Posted: March 15, 2009 7:21 PM Post subject: |
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Sorry about your dad, Gidget! Happy Anniversary! (((((HUGS))))) _________________
Essie
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Tammy
Quit Date: February 16, 2004
Posts: 2565 Location: Florida
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Posted: March 15, 2009 8:16 PM Post subject: |
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Happy 1 year free!
Sorry about your dad. _________________
Tammy
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Barbara K.
Quit Date: December 23, 2004
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Posted: March 15, 2009 9:30 PM Post subject: |
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Gidget,
You have my condolences on your dad. I just know is still proud of you. _________________
Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn arouind and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.
Blessings,
Barbara K. |
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kannprint
Quit Date: April 10, 2004
Posts: 4988 Location: St. Louis, MO
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Posted: March 16, 2009 9:37 AM Post subject: |
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You have my deepest sympathy, Gidget, on the loss of your Dad. Like you, I'm certain he continues to feel pride for you in your quit. Please take care of yourself. _________________
LIVE WELL, LAUGH OFTEN, LOVE MUCH.
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Kissimee
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Posts: 772 Location: St. Louis, MO
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Posted: March 16, 2009 9:46 AM Post subject: |
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((((Gidget))))) and a Congratz
It hurts so bad losing that wonderful parent and then to see the pain he went through but it has made you a stronger woman. And you are correct, he is celebrating with you.
May your days be less painful than the day before...May your brain remember all the good memories...May your heart be filled with the love and joy he gave you.
Take care, huney....Congratz on your year of new life. _________________
I can NOT control the addiction because if I could, it would NOT be an addiction...BUT I can control ME, the addict.
~Tracy
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nicfirth
Quit Date: July 17, 2008
Posts: 383 Location: England
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Posted: March 16, 2009 4:28 PM Post subject: |
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Sorry for your loss.
Congratulations on your smoke free anniversary. _________________
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Pamela
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Posted: March 24, 2009 2:35 PM Post subject: |
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Congrats on one year of freedom from smoking gidget! _________________
FIVE + years of freedom and loving it! |
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Leona
Quit Date: June 1, 2017
Posts: 1838 Location: Alpena, Michigan
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Posted: March 24, 2009 8:35 PM Post subject: |
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Gidget,
I am sorry for your dad's passing and I know how it feels. Especially to smoking and how horrible that demon has that hold on our loved ones even in their las hours. Congragulations on your 1 year quit and stand strong it gets a bit easier in both departments. _________________
Quiting smoking is like a fine wine ......
It just gets better with age. |
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