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Leona
Quit Date: June 1, 2017
Posts: 1838 Location: Alpena, Michigan
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Posted: June 20, 2009 12:24 PM Post subject: I never learn |
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I was going to go to Virginia in August to live. But once again he has cut me out of his life telling me I was a plaything and that he only used me for his own amusement. and that he was bored with me.
It really hurt but you know what I guess that I deserve it. So it looks like I stay in MI and rot here. I hate it here I wish I could just get out but where would I go? Where would I stay?
I never seem to learn. _________________
Quiting smoking is like a fine wine ......
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kevin Site Admin
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Posted: June 20, 2009 8:28 PM Post subject: |
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sorry this happened to you, leona.
but i would suggest that you change your 2nd paragraph to read:
"it really hurt, but you know what? it's better that i know what he's really like now, before i uprooted my whole life to be with someone who is in no way worthy of that kind of commitment from me. now i have time to consider my options, and decide where i want to go next; the world is wide open to me, and all the energy i would've put into planning a move to virginia can now be devoted to deciding what's best for me." _________________
keep choosing life!
kevin
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Mary Dude
Quit Date: June 15, 2004
Posts: 4803 Location: Pittsburgh, PA
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Posted: June 20, 2009 10:43 PM Post subject: |
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(((Leona))) - I agree with Kevin...trust that you are right where you need to be for now...that may change with time...but please -hang in there!! _________________
Mary D.
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Worry doesn't help tomorrow's troubles, but it does ruin today's happiness! |
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Leona
Quit Date: June 1, 2017
Posts: 1838 Location: Alpena, Michigan
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Posted: June 21, 2009 12:21 AM Post subject: |
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Your right Kevin and Mary both. While it hurt how would I of survived in Virginia with no one I knew there. I LOVED the state but not enough to be alone I guess. Yes I know he is not worthy of me now. I offered to do somthing for him and he would accept it ONLY if I made the deal to NOT ever talk to him again. I CAN"T and WON"T make that kind of a deal. It is blackmail and I don't do well with blackmail.
*shakes my head* Now I get to pick up the pieces and TRY to live without him. Someone that I love more then my own life. This is going to be hard really hard _________________
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pinkpearl
Quit Date: June 30, 2007
Posts: 1667 Location: Illinois
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Posted: June 21, 2009 2:37 PM Post subject: |
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Since you dont like where you live is it possible to just move to a different town in Michigan?
Be glad your where you are and not with someone that treats you that way. _________________
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Gidget
Quit Date: March 14, 2008
Posts: 693 Location: New Haven, CT
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Posted: June 22, 2009 2:16 PM Post subject: |
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Leona, I'm sorry you are going through this. You are gaining freedom and control over your life rather than losing something. This man is a blight to your livlihood. Just as you chose freedom from smoking, you must choose freedom from this other blight. You are a warm and kind person who doesn't need to be treated poorly by someone who is so clearly unworthy.
Hugs to you.
Gidget _________________
My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny.
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Leona
Quit Date: June 1, 2017
Posts: 1838 Location: Alpena, Michigan
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Posted: June 22, 2009 7:26 PM Post subject: |
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Pink and Gidget,
Sure feels liike I am the blight on society. At least that is what he thinks of me. Told me that I have wasted my life and you know what he is right I have but with my life and the choices that had to be made whethere I wanted them or not and believe me of the choices I made it was teh lesser of two evils that I chose to deal with anyway I am rambling and lost track of what I was saying but yeah he is right I HAVE wasted my life. I don't see it going any diferently. There is nothing here for me but I now own my house completely just paid it off and transfered the deed from the man's name that I was buying from to mine. So yeah now I am a home owner. And this is wasting my life .... I miss Travis more tehn I can tell you but there is nothing I can do about it UNLESS he comes back to me then I am not sure if I want to take him back as anything but a freind. I don't want to be hurt again and again and again _________________
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