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Cowgirl UP!



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Location: Ala

PostPosted: December 24, 2004 8:32 PM    Post subject: Baby it is cold outside! Reply with quote

I was answering another one of my posts when I had a lightbulb moment or maybe a blonde moment ,anyhow, I feel naked without the smokescreen to hide behind....my RAW feelings are exposed for the first time...I AM VULNERABLE!!! Now, we are talking about the baby girl who took care of her older sisters, who never let you know she was hurting during an argument, and one who could hold her own with man or woman Laughing Laughinga real trooper. Now, I cry, get tearful, angry, upset and plain scared and it is all out there...I cannot hide it behind the screen anymore...thus the meanines come to try to cover up my nakedness. It tries to cover, keep you at bay, and protect.

Ok, I know this may sound very strange to some but at least I now know what the hell has been going on and no white coats are needed yet!

Merry Christmas everyone...I love ya all!
Kay
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kevin
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Location: cincinnati, oh

PostPosted: December 25, 2004 12:59 AM    Post subject: Reply with quote

you got that right; it's 18° out right now - brrrrr!!!!!! Wink

isn't it wild? all that stuff going on inside all these years, and we were hardly aware of it...

your experience doesn't sound the least bit strange, Kay; i think every successful quitter has this realization at some point. (i also think that the failure to recognize this why so many quitters turn to other less-than-optimal behaviors - overeating, excessive drinking, etc. - when they quit; they're unconsciously trying to replace the smokescreen.) better to recognize that we're people too and that people have emotions - some good and some not so good - and learn to deal with them head-on.

you're doing great! Smile
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Fightn4life



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October 23, 2003

Posts: 1573
Location: Loysburg, PA

PostPosted: December 26, 2004 9:19 AM    Post subject: Reply with quote

Hey Cowgirl..I do understand where you are coming from. (It's 19 here) Burr...

I was always told I was such a strong person. People always came to me to help hold them up. What a shock to find out there was a little scared girl behind the smoke screen.

I have been through an emotional roller coaster dealing with the real me.

One of the reasons I changed my name to fightn4life and found a female warrior was to try to change the image I felt as a non-smoker. (A wimp) I know the power of the mind and I knew to keep this quit I needed to change the way I was thinking. I was scared.

The longer my quit stayed strong the stronger I felt.

I still realize I am not the rock, the wall, the stabilizing force I was made out to be all those years. I am just me.

You know what; I am beginning to feel like it is ok to be me. A bit mixed up at times, tears, and all.

Hang in there you are doing awesome. If the white coats haven't nailed me by now I feel you're pretty safe.

(Of course I run like the wind now that I tossed the smokes..ok..I can walk really fast.)



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kannprint



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PostPosted: December 26, 2004 12:55 PM    Post subject: Reply with quote

It's very interesting getting to know who we really are, isn't it? I'm still searching a little at a time but sure like this person more than I did the smoking "me."
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PostPosted: December 27, 2004 8:02 PM    Post subject: Reply with quote

Sounds like you are really doing great, Kay!

This is one of the things I love best about woofmang. I have read so many threads that address exactly how I feel, and what that stage of quit feels like.

I love who I am becoming and am thankful to share this journey with all of woofmang!

Three cheers for us! Cool
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Wanda



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PostPosted: December 28, 2004 8:30 AM    Post subject: Reply with quote

i won't be sending the white coats for you kay, i get it. especially that part about the meanies. its amazing that we never knew we were hiding.

i don't know what the temp is here, but i know i remember to warm up my car before i drive it!
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