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Barbara K.
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Posted: February 15, 2007 11:38 AM Post subject: |
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Lady,
I didn't see the 2nd page until I had posted my 1st response. I am going to PM you later as I need to get offline now. _________________
Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn arouind and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.
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texas2step
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Posted: February 15, 2007 8:06 PM Post subject: Lady check in.... |
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Lady are you okay... check in..... check in... some of us will worry.....
Come on girl, you're gonna' make it, you've seen harder things to accomplish than this. I know You Can Do It!!!!!!!!!!
Texas _________________
"You can't always have happiness, but you can always give happiness."
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Lady
Quit Date: July 1, 2005
Posts: 378 Location: Georgia
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Posted: February 15, 2007 9:33 PM Post subject: Not any better. |
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I'm still here. I'm frustrated and ready to give up completely but I'm here. The counselor called this morning to check on me. I told her I'm no longer taking any medication. I don't care anymore. She said all the right things like... what would that prove, it won't help, and convinced me to just continue to take the medication a little longer and add to it something for anxiety and see if that helps any. She said we will find what works so just hang on and don't give up just yet. I ageed to take the medicine.
I don't feel any differently than I did yesterday. People could ask me what is wrong and the only response I would have is "I don't know". I don't know! All I know is I'm so tired of feeling this way and tired of fighting trying not to feel this way. The counselor called again this evening to check on me and said she would call me again tomorrow. I must really sound like a nut now! The tears comes and go but they don't stop. I don't know what to do. The only think I know that works is my God. I would give anything right now to have some comforting loving arms wrapped around me telling me that I am ok. Because I just do not feel ok. I am so NOT ok. _________________
I cannot change the past, but the future is waiting for me. |
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Seabrez
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Posted: February 15, 2007 10:40 PM Post subject: Re: Not any better. |
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I would give anything right now to have some comforting loving arms wrapped around me telling me that I am ok. |
Lady,
Close your eyes....now imagine God in all His glory....and He is wrapping His arms around you. Because yes....
God says....Lady, you are ok. I love you just the way you are right now, right this very minute. You are ok Lady...believe it!
And I, too, wrap my arms around you Lady. Just wish I could physically reach through this computer to you.
I wonder......crying is the usually the result of pain and wounds, deep hurts...anything come to mind right off the bat? If it does, it's something to think about. Take it one step at a time, and maybe with each step will come some healing. Just some food for thought.
Keep holding on!
Love and Hugging You *******Lady******* _________________
Living in Freedom
Deb
Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come. 2 Corn 5:17 NASB |
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essie662
Quit Date: April 14, 2004
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Posted: February 15, 2007 10:50 PM Post subject: |
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Just for you, Lady -
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Simone
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Posted: February 17, 2007 5:59 AM Post subject: |
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Lady I am so sorry for your loss sending love & healing angels to you.
Simone xx |
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Lady
Quit Date: July 1, 2005
Posts: 378 Location: Georgia
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Posted: December 7, 2007 9:37 AM Post subject: |
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WOW! I'm reading over this post. This Sunday is the anniversary date of Kevin's accident and I was looking to see where I posted about it. It was such a difficult time and I thought this year was just as bad until I read this post again.
I still miss Kevin. My daughter isn't talking to me at all now because she is all grown up and doesn't Need nor want mom anymore. But at the same time, I have come so far.
I'm down to 1/2 dose on my depression medication and have been doing well with that. I don't mind the 1/2 dosage. I'm really amazed at how well I'm doing with it. It's been a little over a month now since I stepped down and I'm really proud of the way I'm finally starting to handle things!
Remembering Kevin this weekend. He is with the Lord. Remembering my daughter, who really needs the Lord. All I can do is pray.
Lady _________________
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Simone
Quit Date: April 28, 2005
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Posted: December 7, 2007 10:07 AM Post subject: |
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Sending Angels *hugs*
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Lady
Quit Date: July 1, 2005
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Posted: December 7, 2007 10:46 AM Post subject: |
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I'm going to go buy two candles. One for Kevin and one for Koli (my daughter). each year on Christmas Eve and Christmas I will light them in rememberence of the missing children.
I'm learning how to come to terms with the things I cannot control. I will do this as my way of having them there. They are always in my heart. The candles will be symbolic of that.
We live, we learn, we grow. Right?? _________________
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Simone
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Posted: December 7, 2007 10:57 AM Post subject: |
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So true we live, we love, we learn, we grow , the candles are symbolic of remembrance love & light.
My heart aches for you Lady.
Simone xox |
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Lady
Quit Date: July 1, 2005
Posts: 378 Location: Georgia
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Posted: December 7, 2007 1:46 PM Post subject: |
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I found the candles.
a stand for 3 candles, with holly and pinecones lightly covered in snow. I bought a red candle for the center representing Jesus and then two white candles, one for Kevin and one for Koli.
I will light them on Christmas Eve and again Christmas morning. When those candles are lit, those kids will be right there with me in my heart where they belong. God has both of them in His hands. He will take care of them.
It helps me come to terms with it all. _________________
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