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Kissimee
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Posted: December 24, 2007 12:14 PM Post subject: Every day I tell myself |
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Don't give in...Don't go there...the craving will quit whether or not you smoke....and NOW I started counting the days I've smoked. I'm at 8 days...so I'm changing that....
Tracy - Free and Healing for 2 Hours and 33 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy , by avoiding the use of 1 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $0.17.
AND I will continue to update this everytime I think about smoking (and when i'm close to the computer)...Christmas for me and my kids is that I will be free again. They hate it, I hate it...THIS IS HORRIBLE!
I would have never thought I would be back here saying all this..and the craziness that goes through your head. _________________
I can NOT control the addiction because if I could, it would NOT be an addiction...BUT I can control ME, the addict.
~Tracy
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kannprint
Quit Date: April 10, 2004
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Posted: December 24, 2007 12:26 PM Post subject: |
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Merry Christmas, Tracy. Good for you seeking freedom again. How proud your children must be of Mom. _________________
LIVE WELL, LAUGH OFTEN, LOVE MUCH.
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Kissimee
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Posted: December 24, 2007 12:44 PM Post subject: |
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No, I think the disappointment is still there for them. And I don't blame them...I'm disappointed.
Merry Christmas to you!
Tracy - Free and Healing for 3 Hours and 3 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy , by avoiding the use of 1 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $0.21. _________________
I can NOT control the addiction because if I could, it would NOT be an addiction...BUT I can control ME, the addict.
~Tracy
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Kissimee
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Posted: December 24, 2007 1:01 PM Post subject: |
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The decision to quit smoking is a major one. It is probably the most important health decision you will make in your life. Major decisions are not made on a whim, although many of us have tried many times. Have you ever gone to bed at night telling yourself that you won’t smoke tomorrow? Or said on a weekend that Monday you’ll quit? Some participants in my classes have told me they say that to themselves every Sunday night. Major decisions usually take time and careful consideration. COPIED FROM FFS |
This is me...everyday I told myself this...eveyday I failed but I lasted a little longer eveyday without a smoke. How do I compare this statement against, just quit now before it gets worse.
At first, I thought about working the program again, gives me time to clear my heart...and heard comments to just quit now. That made sense to me...but now I feel like I want to think this out...I don't want to keep getting up evey morning and fail ... then I really have no confidence.
Last time, it was so simple...You are broke...You can't smoke. And that was the truth of it. Now, I'm trying to learn and digg inside myself.
Yet I know all the things I'm feeling...isn't the correct way to be....so that is maddening in itself.
Tracy - Free and Healing for 3 Hours and 21 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy , by avoiding the use of 1 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $0.23. _________________
I can NOT control the addiction because if I could, it would NOT be an addiction...BUT I can control ME, the addict.
~Tracy
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kevin Site Admin
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Pamela
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Posted: December 24, 2007 1:35 PM Post subject: |
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Good for you Tracy! Remember, you only have to get through the next crave! you know you can do that.
By the way, I doubt the kids are as disappointed in your smoking as they are in your continuing to smoke.
You are now officially, free, so stay that way! _________________
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Kissimee
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Posted: December 24, 2007 1:47 PM Post subject: |
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that article was really good...gives you a warm feeling when you body is ragging inside.
Tracy - Free and Healing for 4 Hours and 7 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy , by avoiding the use of 2 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $0.28. _________________
I can NOT control the addiction because if I could, it would NOT be an addiction...BUT I can control ME, the addict.
~Tracy
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Kissimee
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Posted: December 24, 2007 3:09 PM Post subject: |
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I really don't want to drive home...Even though I'm working on Christmas Eve...I don't want to get back into the car...the smell, the pressure...
every crave...sorry guys!
Tracy - Free and Healing for 5 Hours and 29 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy , by avoiding the use of 2 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $0.37. _________________
I can NOT control the addiction because if I could, it would NOT be an addiction...BUT I can control ME, the addict.
~Tracy
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Pamela
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Posted: December 24, 2007 3:55 PM Post subject: |
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Tracy - Do what I did...open the window wide and hang your head out like a dog!
Then sing at the top of your lungs...Dashing through the snowwwww,......!
Just watch out for the Police. _________________
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Rusty
Quit Date: December 13, 2004
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Posted: December 24, 2007 9:42 PM Post subject: |
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How are you doing, Tracy?
Rusty _________________
The Buddha says: Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful. |
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Patty129
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Posted: December 25, 2007 9:20 AM Post subject: |
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Merry Christmas, Tracy....keep it going.
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daggy12
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Posted: December 25, 2007 10:30 AM Post subject: |
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Merry Christmas to you and your family!!!! _________________
Life can only be "understood" by looking backward, but must be "lived" by looking forward.
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jlynn931
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Posted: December 25, 2007 11:45 PM Post subject: |
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merry xmas tracy! hope you are doing well! |
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Seabrez
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Posted: December 26, 2007 2:02 AM Post subject: |
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Merry Christmas Tracy!
How's it going? When I finally came to a place of acceptance with quitting, the internal struggle seems to disappear. No, not the urges or craves, per se, but the wrestling going back and forth in the mind. Keep going...even if wrestling with breaking free and being quit...one point in time, an acceptance will take hold and it'll be soooo much better!
Hugs! _________________
Living in Freedom
Deb
Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come. 2 Corn 5:17 NASB |
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Kissimee
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Posted: December 26, 2007 10:07 AM Post subject: |
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I'm okay...not quit but okay. It was fine at work but then on the drive home....the car was the hardest part last time too.
I still have the date of Jan 7th but I really wanted it to be sooner. And only I can do that I know.
I was so ashamed that I didn't visit any sites over my day off...that is not a good thing. It was like I had never quit...
Just stinks...I'm a single mom and have conquered so many things in my life...and I just can't get over this.
but I'm going to _________________
I can NOT control the addiction because if I could, it would NOT be an addiction...BUT I can control ME, the addict.
~Tracy
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